Trust

I am very upset these few days, i thought i can act as usual, being optimistic and happy going, but i fail. I think of him when i see his pictures, i made a decision to put in my cupboard but then it couldn't stop me from thinking. I do not miss him because what he did really hurt me terribly but i am still reflecting of the past sweet memories that we used to had. When i hear those touching songs, tears dripping beyond my control.

I used to speak in baby language with him (something like "aiyomo"), i don't even realize that baby language just slip out from my mouth unintentionally when i am alone, i stunned and felt so horrible, i must stop using that kind of language! Why did he repeat his mistakes again and again while i was just like a doll being played and forgiving him over and over again.

I couldn't blame him though, he was like that because i chose to trust him too much, he was pampered by me until he lost his own dignity, pride and basic morality. I need to forget all these and begin with a new life. I just pray that he won't repeat the same mistake anymore to disappoint those who love and trust him.