My leng lui aunt (my twin cousins' mother) instructed me to go upstair, she got something to tell me. I sensed that she would tell me something related to him. I took a deep breath, be prepared to listen to her advice, actually i didn't feel annoyed at all but i love to listen to her advice.
And the most awkward thing was....she just stared at me and I started to cry without reasons. She never opened her mouth but my tears poured out like rain, wow~~she's really POWERFUL.
My aunt knew what had happened to me for the past few days, actually she didnt want to get involved but my mum asked her to talk to me. She understands that i seldom talk to my parents but my mum knows it whenever i am upset, is just that she doesn't know how to comfort, advice and express her feelings towards me, i know it too. I know my mum really worries about me, i shouldnt let her worried anymore as i know when i have gone through deep depression she is always there by my side, looking after me wordless but upset in heart, she always put her kids at the first place, everything she does is for our own goods. Sorry mum..i won't let you worried anymore.
When you don't fall, you won't know how to stand up. Fall and gain experiences so that next time you can avoid those holes and obtacles that make you fall, so that next time you can be smarter to choose which way to go to prevent yourself from falling. And it could be lesson to others too. Need to remind my partner - V, i hope you really learn from past experiences and be smart too.
*No Pain No Gain*
My aunt told me to choose guys with below conditions:
1) Find a guy that love you more than you love him, always put you before him.
2) Don't trust a guy 100%, especially personal things eg: don't let guy to stand beside you when you withdraw money from atm, always take handbag yourself, don't let other guys to take for you, etc.
3) Find a guy that respects and showing cares for your friends, family, relatives, and especially you yourself.
Cherish someone that brings smile on your face when you think back the past but not for someone that brings tears to you. She asked me to think twice, when i reflect about my past, is his love genuine? If it is not genuine then it is not worth for me to cry. Yes, i don't think his love is genuine, it is FAKE after all! Those were no longer sweet memories but memories that filled with cheats and lies.
My parents opposed me to take part in acting since secondary school. But because of my aunt, i got the chance to act on stage which is my favourite interest in life. She advised my mum to let me to participate in dramas, she supports me very much! When she walked out from the theater after watching my act, she told my mum," You had made the right decision." She felt proud of me and i cried non stop while listening to her.
My aunt always think that i am a strong and independent girl, if i can act good on stage i can act good in real life too, she believes that i can be strong and stand up once again. She ended the conversation with a sweet long hug by saying "I Love You." Soft but yet warm. Though she is not my mum but she treats me as her own daughter, i really feel great and happy. Wish her healthy, happy and pretty forever. Thanks a lot, aunty Ivy.